Friday, 31 January 2014

ramble



So it's been a while. I guess I've just been a bit terrified to blog, not because I haven't got anything to say but because of what people would think if they saw it. I'm really, really introverted and have, in recent years, developed a bit of a social anxiety problem, which really sucks. I am trying to sort it out though. I don't think therapy is for me (at the moment at least) but maybe if I write here it might act like a kind of therapy? I don't know. I'm not really one to tell anyone my worries and problems and tend to let them bottle up inside of me until I get into a total state. It's not healthy at all. I'm going to treat this like a diary, I think. Somewhere I can spill my thoughts out and rave about TV shows, books and stuff.

I've taken the huge step (for me!) of applying to university again. I have chosen to study Psychology (if anywhere will take me!) because I am so interested in that topic and genuinely just want to learn more about it! I'm in the horrible stage at the moment between applying and getting a response. I have a feeling I'm not going to get in but at least I can ask for feedback and do what they advise, be it volunteer or a short course, and hopefully re-apply next year!

There is also loads of changes at my work at well. I'm actually welcoming them with open arms as I think it could be the best thing for me to have a little change! I am so close to finishing my HR college course, I have one more unit to do and I'm done! I found the course a huge challenge as I am so not comfortable with new people (people in general) but I did it and I'm really pleased I did! I made some good relationships so I've kind of proven to myself that I can do it if I have to!

I've become obsessed with Netflix which I need to sort out. I'm currently half way though Dexter and Heroes and I'm totally planning to start American Horror Story (kind of terrified though) this weekend. I also have Game of Thrones and Deathnote to finish. Don't even mention RuPaul to me because I will talk Drag all day if I could. I've become re-obsessed with Sherlock after series 3 (and Benedict Cumberbatch obviously) and I'm still not over Star Trek into Darkness and Zachary Quinto's Spock (kind of obsessed with Zachary Quinto at the moment, why isn't he my bestie?!) and I've become enthrolled with Flappy Bird. Currently sitting on a best score of 34 and I'm genuinely considering putting it on my CV I'm so proud of that score.

I've also re-stocked my bookcase with loads of good books to read! John Green back catalogue, some Maureen Johnson, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy and some Sherlock Holmes as well! Got a lot to read. So. Excited.

I've still been baking like a loon. This week I made a birthday cake for my friend at work. She is a fan of the Red Velvet Cupcakes that I have made a few times so, obviously, I got totally carried away and made a 3 tier Red Velvet Birthday cake...! On the subject of baking, we are getting a brand new kitchen in a few weeks which excites me hugely! It's going to take over a week to install so I have to take Oscar to work. He is kind of annoying but I loves him so I don't mind (too much).

I'm are going to London at the end of February to visit my family and I am so excited! I feel so comfortable and happy in London (it feels like a second home) and can't wait to go back! There is also plans to go to New York in June which is SO exciting! I have never traveled further than Northern France (and we always traveled via ferry) so I am excited to experience the whole getting on a plane, staying in a hotel and getting to explore a brand new city thing!


My sister is in Aberdeen doing art at university. She is one of my most favourite people in the world and we are so close. I miss her lots but we are going to go and visit in February and I can't wait! 

I think that is every update I can think of. Slightly random but I am easing myself back in! February is gearing up to be a mammoth month! Kitchen, Aberdeen and London! As I say this is just a way for me to talk really. I tend to keep myself to myself but I do have a lot of opinions and obsessions so this is the only way I can think of to channel my excitement into something productive! 

I've totally forgotten how much I love to write/ramble!


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